``You f*king whore! Just die away so everything would be better!! Saku texted me like that today. I stared my phone long time, read again, again and again, I couldnīt get what there read. But it is like that, everything would be better if i die. I talked to my dad to change my phone number, he asked why. I couldnīt say the real reason. But like it would help, changing a number, they will find it or my kind mom would give it if they ask her. Mom doenīt understand why someone who donīt visit us never,...