| Atrixdog | November 23, 2013 11:25 AM |
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Originally Posted by TiongHwi
(Post 1518498)
its hard on those folks' lives that taught you that, - and not to show any kind of disrespect or contempt to them - that showing any kind of emotion was a weakness.
being able to show emotions..u probably do not know how much it can mean to others. a happy smile on your face can also bring a cheer to another person (internally or externally). a sad face can bring concern from those care for you. a crying face tells people of pent-up grief that the soul can no longer take. an angry or unhappy face tells people of how much you disagree with their words/actions or how inconsiderate they were towards your feelings. of course there are people who disregard such stuff, but its not ur job to focus on them.
this is jus how i go about. painful memories are diluted, not denied. happy/laughing and unhappy/sad moments are to be shared to compound & reduce respectively. crying helps to express what words cannot express.
| No, I get where you're coming from.
My father has sociopathic tendencies.
He's always had this desire, more like delusion, to turn me into a perfect human(he'd call it "an evolved human"). Since I was very, very young, he made me do martial arts, hand to hand combat, and regular sparring with my brother and sometimes himself.
He'd make me punch wooden boards and walls so my bones would get stronger.
He'd sometimes make me meditate.
When I was in the 4th grade, I'd do 8th grade math problems. He'd make me read encyclopedias and dictionaries.
Because I wasn't allowed to display any emotion, by the time I got in high school, I got so good at reading other people that I would make a "mask" for every person I met, so I could manipulate them.
I never had a childhood, but I don't regret it, because I had Atrix... | 