| 4ncient | August 23, 2013 10:25 AM |
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Originally Posted by Miya
(Post 1313259)
It may be worded wrong, but the tears I'm shedding are from the joy that she brought me and the joy that I got to miss this summer. And no, this crying will most likely not benefit me in anyway, but I'm clueless on what to do. But you need to see it from my perspective and not your own. I've never felt someone caring or loving me but her. I've never felt that from my parents (or anyone else) and I still don't. They always say they care and love me, and I believe them. But I don't feel it.
| If i say that i love you, would it change something? :D
Well, glad to hear that you don't feel pity tho. And, you clueless for what do to ? Think everything over and over again. I'm sure that you will find a way how to escape those shades of yours and get everything working again, like it was before/when/in the process when you met her.
Thus, i remembering when my stepmother passed out. I liked her much. I think she loved me tho, even if she didn't said that. She was great support for me, and helped in all life problems that i had. When she was gone, i didn't get my thing done right. Father was depressed too, and didn't cared of me. It's same today. I don't sense any of support from him. But, yeah, i think those kind of things strikes deep in persons heart, but.. It's almost 2years already, and he always looks sad when talking about her. And, he found other dear person, that he can rely on. I think he's a bit more changed now. Though, yes, i didn't experienced that myself, but, to lose great support isn't satisfying thing. I got over it, and, i know that everything will be the same as it is now. But, i don't see myself depressed or sad. It's not like i'm good at showing emotions or so, tho, i think it's for the best | 