| Rawrgity | September 4, 2013 08:10 AM |
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Originally Posted by Cat_Thief
(Post 1350552)
Yea, I used to be a spy in one of my 9 lives .............
| All my past/alternate lives are kinda like this one, except I died/failed. But I think I've got it about right, finally. That one sudden death near the end of August 2013 really threw me off, but the way I got my bearings back, at least enough not to lose myself, within about a day of the leap just shows hopefulness instead. But the memory blurring and universal difference parts certainly make for a setback... For a few hours, I felt like even gravity was slightly different. And as for things like my personal body/brain language habits and fine motor skill muscle memory, it was like I was inside another person. But I adjusted shockingly well.
However, I'm pretty much nearing the end of interaction attempts with other inhabitants of this planet... I just hate treating any life with the remote possibility of being sentient, no matter how idiotic or how hopeless for how long, like dolls to be manipulated. It clogs my throat with bile. The sneaky hypocrisy in treating any living being as if it does not have infinite potential, even if that seemingly absurd hypocrisy is so small, justified, and minuscule as to escape identification ... makes me want to vomit. But I suppose I'll probably end up getting my hands a bit dirtier than I have been...
Hm.
It's about time for me to leave... | 